I’ve Been Tired

Yes, yes… I know what you may be thinking. I missed a week.  I did. And I am both apologetic and okay with it because ya girl has been TIRED.

I will admit, working this new job AND running a blog is taking some getting used to. After I get off I quite literally want to lay in my bed doing absolutely nothing for the rest of the night. I have been mentally beating myself up several times over the past week.

I felt like taking any sort of break meant that I wasn’t dedicated enough to my blog and my passions. And then I had to ask myself a very important question.

Why am I upset? 

I tend to try my best to uplift people. Be a shoulder to lean on and an ear that listens to anyone who needs it. But I’m often the hardest on the most important person in my life… me. 

I struggle with showing myself grace. 

I put a lot of emotional pressure on myself that I NEED to try to be my own definition of perfect. I want to be a jack of all trades, so I need to be consistently growing, learning, and doing things that make me way better than I was last week. 

But the majority of the time, these are impossible expectations to live up to. Why? Because… 

I am human. 

I am not meant to be on go 99.99% seven days out of the week. I get tired. I get uninspired. I get anxious. And that’s all okay and normal. 

While I am self-aware about my habit to get down on myself for things that I shouldn’t be, I also acknowledge that having social media plays a role in this outlook on life. 

Every day we are all hearing hundreds of people’s opinions, seeing their lifestyles, inhaling the tiny piece of their world that they decide to share. And a lot of the time, people seem like they have the “perfect” life. 

They have the money, the cars, the clothes, and the relationships that we think we want. And whole time, those same people are doing the exact same thing to people that they deem to be in a better situation than they are in. 

It’s not healthy.

“Comparison is the thief of joy.” That is one of the truest statements ever said and yet we… actually, I’ll speak for myself, I… tend to forget it. 

So yes, I know God has blessed me with many passions and talents and the means to pursue them. Which I thank God for. But he did not give me these gifts to abuse them or myself. 

I have to remind myself that life is meant to be enjoyed. And I intend to do so. So, yes. I did miss a week of blogging. But looking back, do I regret it? No. I’ve been tired. And that’s okay. 

And hey! I had several other posts to read through as well. Here read this one.